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We're supposed to be beyond normal people. Better than them. And I usually am. That he thinks I'm not just because of a damn hug -

I was. Trust me, though, one night - even with me - would never be enough to loosen him up. A week straight wouldn't be enough.

Considering how often people find excuses to hate individuals... I would think that you going beyond your previous relationship to Yohji would already be going beyond a normal person. People hold grudges. They distance themselves from 'ephemeral' pleasures simply because they do not hold monetary or practical value.

While I loved my mother very dearly, you know what I was like back then. I didn't see any practical value in friendship or love or physical displays of affection. And I truly believe I'm a better, more stable (humor me) man now. I don't think Crawford's even taken into account how it will affect you to suddenly cut off all physical contact with everyone.

I feel a little strongly on this, I suppose. Apologies for the long-winded dissertation.

...and that sounds like it would be unpleasant. Something would tear after three days at the very maximum...

Excuse me for interrupting, but I would appreciate it if you would refrain from speculating about what I have or have not taken into account.

Well, I would appreciate a private bathroom and a therapist who doesn't horde eyes in his desk drawer, but we can't always get what we want.

And while we're on the subject of things we would appreciate, I would appreciate you not dictating what is weakness and what is strength. Perhaps then I'll stop making such outrageous accusations in relation to your character.

--A.F. II

Clever.

You don't need to stand up for Schuldig; he can take care of himself.

And ought to, right?

You misunderstood me this morning. I'm not going to explain it here.

Then where?

Tonight would be ideal.

Going to force me to come to you whether I like it or not...?

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Who said I was standing for him? I'm merely expressing my displeasure at your behavior--don't make something that's clearly about you, about Schuldig.

--A.F. II

My mistake.

One you should hope you don't repeat, otherwise I'll quote psychology at you. A fate worse than death.

--A.F. II

I doubt that; one can't ignore death.

Unless the right circumstances are present, in which case it's very easy.

--A.F. II

Going beyond in being affectionate is considered more like a regression. Only normal people need friends and allies and lovers and companionship. All Schwarz needs is our powers and our purpose.

Right, Crawford?

Is that really all you want? Power and Schwarz' purpose?

I've always wanted more than Crawford can provide.

Well, now I feel like a vehicle for you to take jabs at Crawford. I suppose that's something of an improvement. You'll have to give me some time to synthesize the antidote for this one--I'd rather keep my record spotless.

Oh, please. I've never needed a vehicle.

What do you mean by antidote?

I managed to pull you out of a dark place twice. I'll do it again, I swear.

I don't know if I can afford your help this time, Arty.

Well that's fucking stupid. Can I punch him?

Be my guest.

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